Soul Meets Body

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This one I know I have posted before, but it is so how I am feeling right now.

“I want to live where soul meets body
And let the sun wrap its arms around me
And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing
And feel, feel what its like to be new”

I want the sun to wrap it’s arms around me and feel new. I want the water to wash over me and be cleansing of all the noise inside.

I know with the death of Robin William’s there has been more talk about depression. Unfortunately depression and being creative seem to go hand and hand for many artists. Right now I am in a bad cycle of depression. I say cycle as mine does seem to cycle. My brain chemistry sometimes makes things too hard or hopeless and other times life seems easier and better.

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Handwriting

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I was stunned with today’s news. I am usually unhappy when I hear anyone’s passing, but emotionally I am affected if I know the person. But today’s news of Robin William’s death update me quite a bit. Maybe because of the mention of him battling depression as I know those waters and it extremely hard to swim through it.   He also has really touched me through movies, his stand-up and interviews.  He was always so articulate when talking on any issue.  So yes, I am deeply sad and upset with his death.

Today’s prompt is handwritting and all I could think of was Robin William’s so I did in my handwriting the line from the character Todd Anderson as he stands on his desk  (not the Walt Whitman version which would be O not Oh.)

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Rough Week

It has been a rough week. A week ago one of our cats was not acting his usual self and we had an emergency visit to the  vet. They can’t figure out what was wrong with him and he does seem to be better. But still scary.

I contacted an old friend I hadn’t talked to in a long while and found out she had surgery to remove cancer cells. So I have been worried about her.
I have had the stomach flu. I am not sure I have ever been this sick before as an adult. Nothing is staying down. I went to the doctor and they ran some tests and everything is pointing to a virus. He explained to me that the stomach flu will last 24 hours, 3 days, 7 days or 10 days. I am coming up on 7 days.
Then today I found out a friend from Ohio died. I am sitting here typing this and still in shock. My friend was suffering and fighting a very hard battle with cancer. But she died from an unrelated issue. I can’t believe this vibrant, beautiful soul isn’t here with us. I sent her a card just a few weeks ago…it had a red party dress on the front and inside I wrote that she would be dolled up, high heels on and dancing again soon. I hope she is now.
Just feeling incredibly sad and grateful at the same time for knowing her and being able to share so many good memories with her in them.
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No More Camera

My camera has went out on my phone.  It is like a part of me is gone too. I guess I didn’t realize how often I use my phone camera every single day. When I said that to Michael and my friend Wendy – they both looked at me like “you are kidding” as they see me use my camera.  I went back to look I thought maybe on average 10 photos a day on a normal day. If we are traveling, doing anything special like going to First Friday’s then I will take 100 to 300 photos a day.  But really that is doubled.  Just a normal everyday with chores and work, I take 20 photos.  When it is an event like a day trip it is more like 500 photos.  Right now I am not sure the options for getting it fixed/replaced. So it might be a while before I get a working phone camera again. I told Michael I already know what my Project Life will look like. Black cards and on the middle of the page NO CAMERA with a frowny face and a tear. Because I really am sad to be without my camera.  It is like my art now…I can’t not do it. I need to express myself through photos. So crossing my fingers we will figure out the options for it soon.

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